karmacops's Diaryland Diary

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after a LONG hiatus.

drinking a dirty martini
(my second for the afternoon)
listening to jazz
from the 50's and 60's
on some iTunes radio station
in my kitchen
on my laptop

am i trying too hard
to find inspiration

trying too hard
to find
some sort of
'word flow'

i miss writing

i used to have so much to say...

i find myself
visiting this old
online diary site
on which i used to write
regularly
but it has been so long
since i contributed
to this world of words
here

i find some sort of hope
in seeing that 2 people
on my
'buddy list'
have updated recently...

the others
are much like me
i suppose

it's been over 3 months
WAY over 3 months

(more like 3 years for me)

i stare at the 5 green Sicilian olives
bathing in dirty gin
in my martini glass
as a wedge of camembert cheese
sits next to it
waiting
to soften
at room temperature

the temperature in here
is rising
or is it just mine
from the gin
and semantic anxiety

if only i could channel
the spirit of Kerouac
or
something...

i read some old words
that i wrote
years ago

was i something more then

more interesting?

have i become a bore
even to myself?

even my dogs look bored.

i used to have something to say!
even if no one was listening.

3:02 P.M. - Tuesday, Nov. 09, 2010

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